Oh, the humanity...

Well, here I am again, ranting about how annoying my little sister is. Lately she has been exhibiting behavior that is worse than usual. Before she used to just sneak out to play with her friends, but now it's all about boys. Every time my parents leave some guys always come over. I walked up stairs only to find some random guy making out with my 15yr old sister on the couch, can I say ewww!?

Furthermore, she always just randomly leaves to go to god knows where and just leaves the door wide open. Oh, don't mind me. I don't care if some random person walks into our house when I am home alone...In regards to game theory I am pretty screwed. If I tell my parents what she is doing then they get pissed at everyone and my sister gets pissed at me. If I don't tell and something happens to her like getting raped or overdosing, then people (possibly including myself) will feel like I am responsible. Now that she is a pot addict there is not much I can do to stop the cycle.

Everything that she does or says just makes me cringe because it is so stupid! I can understand some of the things she does, but it still drives me insane when I talk to her because she thinks she is so tough and understands the consequences to all of her actions, but she doesn't. She is totally in denial and is undeniably naive.

Anyways, I started work at USPS yesterday. It doesn't seem too exciting, but I don't have to talk to anyone, it is part-time and it pays well so I can't complain too much. I just hope I can handle it when I have finals in December because I will have to work a lot of overtime then.

Today Jesus Munoz came over and I helped him get Arabic Lvl 1- Rosetta Stone on his computer. We played around with that for a while before he had to again. It was pretty fun.

That's mostly what I wanted to get out of my system so I can work on some more homework...

Word of the Day: Fiduciary: One who holds a thing in trust for another; a trustee; One who depends for salvation on faith, without works; an antinomian;

Self-Righteous Relatives Are Obnoxious...

My aunt is driving me into insanity. Her childishness is fun sometimes, especially when you are like 13yrs old, but as time goes by it just gets more annoying by the day. I am one who at least tries to establish and maintain a neutral relationship with everyone I meet, under the premise that I might need them someday and don't want to create drama. However, I don't know how much longer I can suppress my anger. Anyone who knows who I am talking about understands...

Our story begins the couples days before now...I am sitting on my computer, doing my homework as usual. Someone wrote a comment and so I just had to reply. I had been on for about 30secs when my Aunt is like: "Hey buddy! What are you doing?!" (Ok, in reality it was probably: "Whatcha doin hadsum guy?!!!!! im off wrk tumurrow", but that is besides the point). I triy to get rid of her, but she really wants me to do something with her because she has even less friends than I do (god forbid), lives alone and has worked as a cashier her whole life. I finally agree to let her come over and make dinner with me the next. She comes over and says she needs to go to the store and so I go with her...only to find out that she wanted to get fair tickets.

It's like, Oh great...I have tons of homework and have to wake up at 5:30am- now I am going to be stuck with a 45yr old woman (with a mentality of a 13yr old) for 6hrs. I get drug all the way out there and all we do the whole time is walk around aimlessly, watching ridiculous "shows" (if you can call them that), while eating overpriced quantities of highly concentrated morsels of fat and sugar. After wasting a good $50 on nasty tasting food my aunt wants to buy me this blanket. I told her like 500 times: "I do NOT want that!" So, she goes and buys it for me...I was totally pissed, especially when I put together everything I had heard her say that day, whereby I cam to the following conclusions about why she bought the damn blanket (oh, no...I swore shoot me Marie):

1) To make my little sister Maranda mad. They got in a fight a while back because she wouldn't go to Lagoon with her (for once, I don't blame her!).

2) To waste every single dime she had just because she's a psychopath.

3) For my supposed graduation gift, which was like 4 months ago- not to mention again that I didn't even want it...

Things have gotten increasingly worse with the advent of Facebook (at least once we showed her how to do it). Now she can stalk us 24/7. Today I was talking to this guy in Italy about this math problem. He mentioned Google and WolframAlpha, which I use almost every day, so I responded by saying something like: "Hooray for Google and Wolfie...I worship them religiously." She posted on one of my friends walls, who she doesn't even know, the following:"Some people worship worldly garbage...if you know what I mean." You know what?! I don't know what you mean, but I do think you should shove your creepy self-righteous stalker comments right up your hairy fat ass!

Ok, wow...that was a really long rant. I feel much better now...If you actually made it past all that, here are some of the things that might actually be remotely interesting.

Tomorrow I am going to the Dentist- in fact, in a couple hours...which is why I should probably get to bed in stead of writing crap on my blog. School is going relatively ok. Math is kind of tedious and stupid sometimes, but hopefully I will manage. Gov't is crap too...my professor just rambles on and on (even worse than I do)! He always says: "I come here everyday prepared and all you do is text on your phones!" Ya, you come prepared to criticize idiotic college students. This is COLLEGE! Either kick them out or ignore them.

CS 1410 is going splendidly. Aside from the touchy semantics and often inevitable circumstances of gridlock when solving problems, it is going well and I am enjoying the majority of it. I am doing the whole book ignorance thing again though. I haven't picked up any of my books (except my Biology book, ironically). Still rambling...blah blah blah...really don't want to go to the Dentist! Oh, I start work next week too...that should be fun. Ok, I am now going to attempt to force myself to lie down in my bed and go to sleep.

A Lovely But Unusual Urge to Write

So, I have finally mustered enough inspiration to write another post for my blog (after a good two months or so). Yesterday I went and saw Resident Evil IV with my sister and her boyfriend. It was a decent movie. In 20yrs it will be worthless because it was mainly for cool explosions, special effects and violence. i thought it really lacked character development. I didn't feel compelled to get up out of my seat and scream: "Come on! Kill that fat cow zombie!" I could really care less who actually won in the end. I thought II and III were much better.

Prior to this we went over to my sister's boyfriend's house so he could take a shower (he got gasoline in his eyes when he was trying to fix my sister's car and wanted to try and mask it up with cologne). There was a little kid there and the first thing he asked was: "Are you a basketball player?" I was like, "no...?" Then he said I sounded like a girl, apologized and then left. It was a very interesting and awkward experience. I love outspoken people because it is funny to hear them state the obvious, whether it is rude or not. Although, whenever I meet someone like that the first thing that goes through their mind is "OMG?! That guy sounds like a girl. Weird..." But they can't help that a malformation in their brain suppresses their ability to repress thoughts and I can't help that my vocal chords are like tooth picks, so whatever! ;)

After that we went and got sushi, which was, as always, very interesting. I ate all kinds of weird things like raw eel, tuna and shrimp wrapped in seaweed and rice. Some of it was really good though, I have to admit.

In general, I have just been going to the University of Utah to get my bachelor's in Computer Science. I have doubts about whether I am really going to like CS, but then I am just like Whatever! I don't give a @#)$*! I am just going to finish and then see what to do from there.

My hobbies lately have consisted of playing SOCOM on the PS3, attempting to learn how to use FL Studio 8 and playing chess online with random people. Other than the fact that I start working at the USPS coding center this month I really don't have anything to say for the moment...Au revoir mes amis!

Word of the Day (or month, more likely): Crapulous (adj.): Sick from excessive indulgence in liquor. A derivative of the Latin adjective crapulosus meaning "intoxicated." My sister looked crapulous today after partying with her friend all night. ;)

Horrible Horror Movie Whore?

Before I get to the main inspiration, if you can call it that, of today's post let me just recap what has happened so far that led up to this event...

First, I went to bed at like 4am and then woke up at 8am. I called Skyline to double check that Michelle, the so called Bookkeeper, would be available to take my money. I enjoyed using the GPS to get there, but was mad to discover I can't charge it with the cigarette lighter because my car is retarded. Therefore, I had to rely on good olde commonsense to find it. Luckily, it wasn't too hard to find. Despite how much I didn't want to do that, I accomplished it anyhow.

Afterwards, I went over to my crazy Aunt Marie's house. Suffered from a slight lack of direction, but luckily I was quickly able to reorient myself. We went to Smith's where she works, talked to my other aunt on Skype, ate lots of fattening foods, and went over and saw my Grandma. Oh, I also took a nap! :)

Next, it was off to take my 2nd post office test: postal exam 714. Yet again I was lost in some random industrial area off of Bangeter highway. I was able to reboot the GPS for another 5min only for it to lead me to a vaguely correct location. After wandering for another 5min I was able to find the "New Horizons" building I was looking for. How the post office coordinates with so many random places is beyond me? I only have to wonder how many companies the NSA has coerced into cooperating with them too? My test was fairly easy as I am a proficient alphanumeric typist! ;) When I got home and checked my email my results were in and it was very vague as usual and said that I was "eligible."

So, I guess you are wondering where this is all going...? Ok, we are almost there! When I checked my email it said I had a PSN (playstation network) transaction. My first thought veered towards identity theft. However, when it said someone had rented Halloween 2 I immediately knew who it was: Maranda, my little sister. Ok, so my mom's credit card is associated with my PSN account which she calmly accessed and started purchasing anything she wanted off the internet. I was mad at her of course and wanted to punch her in the face, but refrained because as soon as mom and dad get home I am going to tell them that she has been making unauthorized internet purchases with their credit card, specifically to buy rated R movies.

Just about 10min ago I was watching the first part of Halloween II and was thoroughly disgusted. I mean, I thought True Blood sex scenes were vulgar, obscene, profane, and risqué, but I think I was sorely mistaken...that show was the sickest shit I have ever seen in my life, I had to get up and leave the room and vent my feelings through this blog. If you really have to know, I saw the scene where the evil guy grabs this black lady at the hospital and starts stabbing her...continues stabbing...followed my intense gore more stabbing and deep fleshly penetrative sounds.

I have to wonder: what do people see in such movies that make them so entertaining and appealing? Paradoxically, I think that movies like that are what create people who incessantly stab people just for fun. Do people watch them to fulfill some sick fantasy of theirs? I guess they would argue that its an adrenaline rush, but frankly I was just thought it was revolting.

I think we see some of the sort of thing with the new hit Twilight series. Although, I don't hate it as much as Halloween I still find it insanely mundane. I neither connect with the relentless psychotic mass murder nor the apparent sexual tension in Twilight. I suppose this just goes to show that art and literature is entertaining to the extent by which we can relate to it. This would make sense if we hold the assumption that literature's purpose is to convey a message, story, or moral more effectively by sticking it in a more creative, narrative and entertaining form. So, if you are a "Horrible Horror Move Whore" addict, then perhaps you contain within you the desire to ruthlessly murder innocent people? If you are struggling with being such a person or any other sort of nasty habit or addiction just think of all the other problems in the world. That's even more depressing for me you might say? No! Just think of all those problems and use it for motivation to go out and do something to help. There is always someone more unfortunate than you. There will always be many problems in the world that are beyond ourselves. So stop wasting your time on shitty horror movies and go do something constructive!!!

To leave on a slightly more positive note, today's words of the day are: antejentacular (before breakfast) and postprandial (after dinner). So when exactly does a moment transition from being antejentacular to postprandial or vice versa? ;)

Thank you for tuning into the lovely rants of an insecure teenager! Remember, if you learned anything...it's all in your head!

Ubuntu: Nefarious or just Solopsistic?

So, this has been my first week with the Linux/Ubuntu OS. You have probably seen my numerous rants on Facebook...I am beginning to wonder if Ubuntu is nefarious or just solopsistic? Sometimes I think it is just flagrantly evil, but I suppose that is Microsoft Windows' job, which therefore leaves Ubuntu to just have its own mind. It acts if it is the only one that exists. Nevertheless, I think I prefer Ubuntu...it keeps things exciting and challenging. What would life be if I couldn't sit on the computer for 6hrs straight inputing numerous seemingly worthless codes into a terminal just to get a eclipse to start up or just properly parse a php code through Apache? Even though I am the one who has administrative control I have to go through about 50 back doors just modify one line of an Apache initialization code. Sometimes Ubuntu likes to pretend that it owns me and not vice versa. After much battling I finally did figure out how to make an alias with Apache, get Eclipse to start properly, install the php plugin, get it to point to the right location, and properly install and uninstall Java 50 times (and correctly point Firefox to the right place for the plugin). Ok, well I am sure you have had enough of me ranting about computer things that you most likely don't even comprehend....

I have, however, came to the conclusion that I like google chrome better than firefox, at least for it's easy interface and functionality. I enjoy just being able to type into the address bar to search something. Or how it remembers which sites I like and I only have to type the first letter, then enter for it to go there. Firefox is much more secure, on the other hand. I even have it set up on a network to ensure a more anonymous browsing experience. It is interesting to see what happens when you login to various sites when they believe you are in some random country like Germany or Japan. Facebook has a total BF and asks you to do all this crap to verify it is really you. Sometimes google is in a different language and when you see those stupid dating commercials saying something like: "Would you like to meet someone in Salt Lake City, UT?" it will substitute the location for some other random location. Oh, I also figured out how to send encrypted email messages using PGP. You make a public and private key using a password and random numbers generated by keystrokes, processing speeds, and mouse movements. You send your public key to a server and when you send someone an encrypted email, then they use your public key. I suppose they would also need your password or would they? I am still confused on that part, as of yet. I guess they could encrypt with their private key and send it back to you followed by you decrypting and sending it back, whereby they can fully decrypt using their private key. Will have to read up more on how that works...

Tomorrow is my postal exam, which I am not particularly looking forward due to my erratic sleeping patterns. Not to mention that it is at some random hotel downtown, which means I have to drive- a long way...and as we all know I detest driving. I guess since I am writing this at 6:30pm today instead of my usual (between 9am/pm)?

Ok, well that's enough for today. Happy week before doomsday!

I guess the words for today are solopsism- a theory holding that the self can know nothing but its own modifications and that the self is the only existent thing; and
nefarious- flagrantly evil or impious.
Song of the day:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1QzuDCp2pU&feature=PlayList&p=568A694E9FBE3CF5&playnext_from=PL&index=30
(Apparently this is song was done by Robert Pattinson's sister, but I am still in denial)

Ubuntu is just as insane as windows...sometimes anyways!

I made a partition on my HDD so I could do a dual windows-ubuntu boot-up. I have really enjoyed using Ubuntu, for the most part. The ups:

1) It is totally free and easy to download/install
2) You can encrypt just about everything and anything- or manage permissions
3) Interface is simple, cute, and allows for easy multi-tasking
4) Rythmbox allows me to switch between my music, internet radio, and podcasts with one click.
5) There's not a ton of extra garbage and superfluous processes to rape the computer of all it's speed.

However, despite all these Pro's I still find coding in PHP easily and efficiently (the way I want) just as mental or even more so than Windows. You must have Apache correctly configured along with Eclipse in order for you to view your PHP files on the web browser. I have been denied access, been given broken link errors, or simply have only been able to download the .php files. I think I have had every possible circumstance occur except for the one I want...at least I have memorized basically all the commands and directories (/var/www$ sudo chmod 700, etc..)! I can't get the server to correctly parse the .php files/code and output to the browser?! I think I am just going to have to say: "screw it...!"

On to other weird oddities...Today my Dad came in and said: "Guess what I found in your car today?!"
My response: "What?"
"A condom!"
"Where?"
"In the cup holder."
"Ok....?"

Immediately I wondered what kind of licentious immature idiot would do that? Immediately I thought: my sister or my aunt. I asked both my mom and sister and we all independently came to the same conclusion. We can exclude my aunt from the possibilities because it would be highly unlikely that she stole my keys and slipped it in my car, which by process of elimination leaves my sister. Why she would do that is unclear, except that she wanted me to get in trouble? Weirdo...

Oh, I suppose I didn't mention why I excluded myself from the list of supsects:
1) I am not stupid enough to leave a condom in plain sight. I have had about 10yrs of sneaking on the computer experience.
2) I have not used my car for like a week.
3) I would be too embarrassed to buy them in the first place.
4) My seemingly over-reactive "reaction" is simply exaggerated by the apparent joy attained by critically analyzing rather stupid and irrelevant situations just because I have nothing better to do. At least I am not putting condoms in people's cars, I find that even more pathetic! :)

However, an even more disturbing question one might ask is: "How and why does my little sister have access to condoms?"

Anyways, today I mostly played with Ubuntu, shot some fat cows up on the PS3, ate lots of deep fried and smothered in chocolate food, and read my PMS (PHP, MySQL, Javascript) book.

I also decided to stop looking at computer components because I determined that I am still too poor to build my own computer. Hopefully someday I will be able to dispose of this horrible 6yr old Dell computer (no offense my baby...you still semi-function!) I am also attempting to suppress my feelings of resentment, fear and excitement for IB scores on the 6th. Lastly, I tried out for the Word Cup. I got 14pts and did not do as well as I hoped. It says on my profile that I am ranked "1." Hopefully that means I made it to the semi-finals, but I really don't know? I will probably find out sometime in August. Well, I think that is all for today! I had better get to bed or my mom is going to be pissed tomorrow when I won't wake up.

Word of the Day: affenpinscher- a terrier-like toy breed of dog.
Song of the Day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulsfXIBycr8

International Baccaluareate- "Omg, social and mental suicide!"

I.B. scores come out a week from Tuesday! For the 5 people (Margoth, Kali, Josh, Jesus, and myself) are all probably insanely nervous. I have officially deemed July 6th, 2010 at 15:45:00 GMT to be our doomsday. We all probably think the others will pass, but still question ourself (at least I do...). Based on past scores, Margoth is probably least likely to pass at the moment because of nasty chemistry, but she is an excellent artist and I would not be surprised to see her get a 6 or 7/7 there. I, on the other hand, was the most idiotic suicidal I.B. student of everyone and naively took both chemistry and biology (our science program is absolutely horrid). I am screaming sonorously in the back of my brain- trying to justify and analyze everyone's scores to ensure we all pass, as you can already see... :)

Now moving away from this so I don't get too worked up...

As you may have also noticed, I am up at 5am in the morning. My sleep patterns are so screwed up at the moment that I cannot differentiate night from day, nor gauge what day of the week it is either. Sometimes I will sleep until 6pm and then the next day I will wake up at 6am and go back to sleep at 6pm. Maybe someday, maybe someday I will actually sleep in regular cycles. God knows what this is doing to my brain!

Today I also scheduled for a date to take the 710 Clerical Abilities Postal Exam. I am attempting to get a job with the post office at the moment. They pay about 13-14$ an hour, which is really good. I am hoping that I pass and get the job, at least for the summer and probably for at least another month or two into the fall. According to Leif, college is easier than I.B. was, so perhaps I will be able to work part-time and go to school full time. I figure, if you are going to do something, then you might as well go all out! You will never be able to better yourself nor test your limits if you don't...

Yesterday, I went to Leatherbye's and it was rather delcious! I got a Daddy Doug's (for my birthday). I already ate every drop of it! *_* I ate it all while I was playing SOCOM on the PS3 with my friend, "I_Am_Ninja." I also had fun acting like a psychotic drunk lesbian with my other friend from Texas, "Candy." I attempted to act manly on there, but that merely resulted in massive ridicule, so I just went all out and claimed to be a girl- it just seemed easier. Plus, it is fun when I kick their trash because guys have really large ego's and are easily angered when beat by a girl. I suppose this paragraph goes well with the title of my blog. Now you all know my dirty little secrets!

For my birthday I got a "Trac" phone, one of those prepaid ones. I was also given a decent sum of money ($100) to spend on computer parts. However, I don't think I will be able to buy a new computer quite yet. I searched on Ebay (my favorite site of all time) and various other sites for cheap computer parts (motherboards, processors, heat sinks, video cards, etc...), but I figure that I will not be able to buy everything quite yet with the $300 or so dollars I have saved up. I will probably have to wait a while. I guess we will see how it all goes.

Lastly, I have been working on building my trivia site. So far I feel like I haven't gotten very far. I have read a tutorial on Javascript on the W3 website. Recently, however, I have been reading a PHP, MySQL, Javascript book that I got from the library. I have read approximately 100pgs. There is a ton of crap I still need to learn...I suppose if I can't force myself to learn how to do this, then perhaps I should not be majoring in computer science this fall. I am not 100% sure this is the right major for me but I a) eventually want to launch a trivia site b) work for the government 3) want a major that includes computers, math and science. According to some lame (but amazingly fairly accurate) psychology test I took on Facebook I am most predisposed to do well as 1. Chemistry 2. Mathematics 3. Computer Science major. I guess I will just have to do it and see how it all goes. Last random tidbit: the Glee finale was excellent! I think I am going to go and play the spelling bee game on visualthesaurus.com. If anyone is nerdy enough, I am up for a challenger to try and beat me! Au revoir!

Word of the Day: licentious- lacking moral discipline, especially sexually unrestrained;